Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Egoist in the Wa Wonderland


Lately I spend lot of time in Wa world.
Or maybe better write 和 world?

Before day or so I refound my beloved artist.
I remember part of her name, but not whole.
And since she deleted her DA I was totally lost.
But I finally found her!!!


Isn't this sweet?
I always loved it~

So finally I have my inspiration back.
Thus even before came music into my heart again.
Nothing more or nothing less than Wagakki band.

I totally fell in love with them so much.
But for now I should fall into sleep.
So~ 
(*´△`*)お(*^д^*)や(*´ε`*)す(*´〜`*)み




Saturday, May 24, 2014

Sweet scented nights

At nights like this, 
nights which scent of sweet smell of jasmine blossoms, 
I just wander on streets 
searching for something I cannot find here anymore 
but what never part away from me.

Feeling

Do you know this feeling?
The one you still need someone
but that actually no one needs you?

I'm not starting to be depresive.
I just feel like this right now.

And it doesn't really matter if
family, friends or someone you love.
(Hahaha...at last)

Why you try hard to interest others,
When they don't need to be interested by you?

My brother came home and my family left me behind again.
I was in work and they got dinner and fun.
My friend forgot me since she went back from some trip.
For other mask it with learning.
And I'm just preparing for piknik wher I don't really care for those people.

Why this looks so normal?
We should be honest to others.

But maybe first we need to be honest to self.

Why I do it?
I assume myself to be massochist.
Emotional.

So...good night


Monday, May 12, 2014

Not bad for ego

Even being egoist, it's never bad to ask.
If you don't know or is interested 
in something you don't know so much about.

The important thing is to ask right way.
Sometimes people around you
can make fun of you or underestimate you,
so it's not really bad if you learn how to 
keep your ego up.

I just got interesting chat with my parents about
"old times" of their young.
Which means like
circa '60-'75.
But in my country way different than
US or other non-socialism countries.
So I asked.

It's pretty normal you don't know everything.
Or ask if you wanna know people experience.
Usually you should ask like...
"Were you also hippie?"
or
"Is something like this true?"
"Was your experience similar?"

Of course these are questions going hand in hand with theme.
(this time movie)
It's easier to ask if you have some theme.
Like using some info you just heard
(in the case you know nothing about it)
and ask about more detail.

Best is if you ask more than one person about theme.
You got more infos, more points of views.
Like my parents...they're 12years from each other,
Which mean different point of view, according to the changes
in political and social view.

But it's just natural.
More poeple.
More views.
You should maybe think more,
but you usually got better picture.


Of course best think is never got into the conversation
with theme you know nothing about.
But if you got, it's not really shame
to admit you don't know so much.
But right way.
"This is not really theme I look so much for."
or
"I just began to search about this thing."
or the most easy just admit:
"I know nearly nothing about this theme.
But I'll like to know more by listening you."

I should say in some way of acting I'm kinda aristocrat.
(Or I try to be)
So some of these answer may sound little bit...hight?
Noble? Or it just sound in my head,
by the way I hear them there?


But remember...you cannot use it all time.
If you do you may look really like an idot...or snob.
Don't know nothing and don't care about anything.
It's better to avoid this.
Sometimes you should talk about theme you like and know.

It can be also something silly,
but make it sound interesting.
Learn how to talk sbout something and excite people.
Serious way or funny.

On my very honest opinion...
our problem now it that we don't really care.
Even biggest problem.
Not to the deep.

Lot of music lyric, anime, movies...etc.
Lead us by bigger or lesser info about something in past,
some historical situation, some book, some play,
great people from all eras.
But we don't care.

I by myself try to not fall into this.
In some wa I'm very old fashioned.
I prefer book instead of Kindle or notebook
(tablet, cellphone...)

Let's take example (from my life btw):
You run into the song you like.
You find out it point to the Phantom of the Opera.

Yes definitelly it's easier to find on the Google
What is Phantom of the Opera about.
But it should be more interesting to read it.
(Believe me.)
Maybe you find out in that you may not like this book.
But you did research at very base.

And now my own experience again.
I liked song pointing to the Phantom of the Opera.
After years I got to the book finally.
I also fell in love to that book.
I fell in love about Garnier Opéra itself.
It's one of my favorite places in Paris.
(If not the most favorite)
And I have good memories about it.

It's not really bad to search about somehting you like.
You can make your life more rich.
Get some more info, more memories.

And it doesn't matter if it's about book or something else.
If you read it in the paper book or e-book.
We just should not stop care about things around us
which we're interested about.
You don't have to read all books everytime.

Sometimes you're just like:
"Oh look that mag! I heard about that!"
Are you curious to know more?

All I talk now it's mostly about visual kei songs or something.
So it's not about "normal" things.
Because of Kaya I red Carmilla, Copélia
also I read Phantom of the Opera, Dracula, Romeo and Juliet,
Macbeth and so...

Recently I learn about French revolution.
Guess why?

Even such a "strange" thing like japanese music
(or anime)
Can lead you to the "serious" things.

It just depend if you want care...
Or are you just lazy or ignorant?





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Sometimes I get feeling I cannot hold on one thing/k
I wanna talk about.
But it's just the way I think about lot of things at ones.

But  one of the greatest people I know told me:
"It's important to take a notice what I take notice of."
This is self fullfillment.
By this you can start to more understand yourself.


Saturday, May 10, 2014

100th


Tadaaaaa~
100th post
Here you have it.

It should be earlier, but it's not.




Now good night~

(* ̄。 ̄*)。。。oO