Brace yourself!

Friends are hard bussines

You don't believe?

Lately they don't make it way easier.

But probably I'm one on blame.

Yes yes definitely.

My fault.

Sorry.

Sometimes I just wanna chat with someone.

Just chat and don't need to search deep in what the hell I want from you.

Isn't it?

No...you just see person who you need to help?

Really?
Why when you already left me?

Haha...

Okay...before I wanted to write some longer post.

About few today's errors.

Today started very nice,

beautiful morning, fresh air, nice weather.

End with deleting and blocking one of my kinda old friend.

Seriously...

...some people should learn when to stop.

Maybe it's even my case.

If it's I believe there will come time when I'll find out as well.

But the last few minutes forced me kinda change my opinion.

Into write everything I want.

*sigh*

But still I wanna say.

Sometimes dealing with friends are hard.

You try to meet with them, but they don't have time.

You try to make them happy with some present on Bday or Xmas.

One my friend say me for last year and half.

"I'm sorry I still owe you present for last Xmas. I'll buy you something bigger..."

I don't want a bigger present...I'll be okay with some small stupid thing.

But not promise something for forever.

I don't believe in "Next time" so much.

And now, when you move 300km away.

"I'll come visit you."

Yes...I wanna believe but...

You never visit me those two years when I lived closer.

Surely you'll do now.

For calling myself egoist and evil,

I try to care about my friend.

I still don't know what I do wrong.

Maybe it's all wrong.

But I never tried to push them so...

*sigh*

My other friend I like very much,

she was able to come from different country to see me.

Another one will now come after world travelling.

And some from France wanna come too when time will be free.

So why you wasn't able to come throught one city?

My french friend gave me place to stay in different country.

Offered me great help.

Share secrets with me.

Believe in me.

You maybe promised me the same,

But when I need you give me hand to help

for stupid five minutes, you rather went with person who hates me.

When you got hour or two time.

Getting you see guitarist you adore without makeup.

Yet you took me the only thing I wanted.

Don't even try to think about.

Thank you.

It's not about that stupid paper.

It's about our friendship and your promises.

Now writing this...

I realized I need to talk to you.

Say you what you don't see.

I wasn't always nicest.
I made fun of you.

But last time when you meet some my other friends, you both went against me.

And yes I puled your hair last time...but you really p*ssed me off with that

"Give up/angry* attitude when I promised to tried hard.

To give you everything you wanted.

Did you realized?

No.

Right?

And by the way.

You're the reason why I hate him.

Hey guys~
Good night  (^o^)/