Cleaning post

Greeeeeetings~

It just came to my mind,

that I have little time so

I can write post.

But because summer just started

and this time it's pretty hectic,

I'll spend my little free time
(before I'll go meet commander and

fabric shopping)

for cleaning my room.

There is no mess

(really it's miracle when there IS actually mess)

BUT...it's filthy,

I didn't got much time to clean lately.

I went to visit my family

for three days, since my

little brother got his engineer degree

so we were celebrating.

And as I mentioned,

these summer gonna be hectic for me,

so I'll not have time to visit my family

maybe even till summer ends.

Sad, right?

Well...but there are many things

we plan to do during the summer!!!

Maybe it'll be pretty cool memories!

No...IT'LL BE!!!

So I need to clean my room,

because it's awful OoO

But don't worry 

I think about next anime post

I promised.

I also finished another one~

And I totally adore it.

And also I got some photos to share.

Just to write post take time.

Actually...lot of time to me!
Eh...so that's why.

But I hope if you'll wait.

See you later.

And remember!
CLEANING IS JUSTICE!!!

Short note that I'm somehow still alive...somehow

Why....yes...

I'm an idiot whom know 

that I should go sleep at reasonable hour 

to wake up early 

for cleaning and pick up my visit....

yet I sew not-totally-necessary-thing, 

finished Chimi Kyara Gekijou, 

cook rice, eggs and natto, 

repaired messed wardrobe 

(aka all my handing things fell 

down in my lord wardrobe =___=") 

and then finally got to bed with 

"I-read-just-a-one-doujin" plan, 

noticed there is update on certain manga. 

Update have "only" 60 pages 

(and I read manga pretty slowly you bet). 

Then read that one doujin, 

and return to "aaaaawww" parts about 10times. 

 

So now it's 4am.

 My plan is to get up at 9am,

to be able to do everything I need.

Next two days 

(and I personally assume the night between...) 

gonna be total hell 

(yet I'll enjoy it damn much) 

and I plan to go read another doujin.

Please kill me.

And kill me now!!!

P.S. Everyday I drag pretty heavy bag
(my friend jokingly call it kit-bag)

And next two days I'll continue.

I can hear my muscles growing!!!

>__<"

Lord meets anime Vol. 02

Guess who finally got their ass to write something?

Oh come on!
I knew you'll cry if I'll not write anything soon.
>:D

Lately my mind is totally strange.
Sometimes I think I don't even recognize myself to be honest.

But it bother me not so much.

Well...

...okay maybe little.

First of all:
I know that the last post about anime was
"Ouji meets anime"
But I don't feel like using "ouji" now,

so you have to deal with it.

Also as I mentinoned before about my crazy mind,
lately I'm not sure about how big part

the lolita world gonna take in my life.
I mean...well I always had this problem.

Balancing over three worlds:
anime, lolita and visual kei (music in general)

I know you can enjoy all at once,

but in my case is balancing kinda dificult for me.

Like recently.
I started to enjoy lolita (lord in my case)

more, yet suddenly came anime,

and to be honest visual kei is losing damn much right now.

Today (or maybe it was already yesterday???)

I started to think about if being a lord makes me happy.

I don't know.
Really I don't.

I keep spending so much money.
Just last month ot was lord clothes etc.

and this month it looks like anime...

I don't understand myself lately.
I really do not.

Please call someone to help me lol

(About 30 minutes break including:
drolling over Hana and Baozi photos,

toilet visit and bringing Haribo up to nest)

Here is some sample

I hate them damn much since I'm not so pretty

and don't have anyone I can be so gayish with.

But same I adore them a lot.

And they have GureShin!!!
All sins forgiven!

Where did I ended?!

Eh doesn't matter.

This month I work damn much.
I mean I have just too much days in work.

Also with my other coworker.
Really we work more than we should this month.
I still can take it.
But having just one day break I start to be too tired

to do something after that.

And I have many things which I have-should-want

to do.
Many unfinished books.
Many unread manga.

Many things to sew.
Many unused new drawing items.
Many unwatched and unfinished anime.

But I'm damn tired.
I hoped that today I can do something finally,

since I leave to my parents for weekend.

Yet I was caught by rain and hail,
(Ofc without umbrella or cape at least)

when I went hunting the parcel send to me,

(Send with DHL, delivered by PPL? Logic please.)

so I don't feel really good now.

(=____=")
Someone bring me the chicken soup and barley tea.

Oh...and that's also reason why I have time to wirte something.

Well and now back to the title.
Anime, huh?

Sure I watched some!!!

And there are some which really caught my heart.

Also I should be honest and admit:
I started to like figures! ;A;
Damn much.

Btw some nice music while writing~

Back to the my new hobby: Drolling over anime figures.


Introducing you my wishlist!

Number one of my heart!
Hyakuya Mikaela from Owari no Seraph
This is the reason for my dreamless nights
spended online searching for his figure.
Damn badluck that when this was realeased
I just changed work and wasn't sure if I can buy this cuttie.
So now it's sold out and I can just search one one which is not insanely expensive!
;A;

Hyakuya Yuuichirou - Ichinose Guren - Hyakuya Mikaela
Of course having all three of them will be totally awesome!
(I know there is also Ferid but I have some grumpy mood about him lately.
But sure his figure is also awesome and I want it!)

Vers kataphrakt Tharsis from Aldnoah.Zero
THIS.IS.AWESOME!!!
But original price is 19800yen I believe
Still Tharsis is piece of art!!! *A*

Speaking about kataphrakts from A/Z
Sleipnir Kaizuka Inaho uses...also on my list.
And once it's there, then with full upgrade.
This one is from final battle.
I never thought I will like some mecha as much as these two lol

And not only mecha from A/Z!
Slaine Troyard from A/Z
This figure is so elegant.
But i also found the...they said limited edition,
where he have handcuffs and crying.
I also want it! *A*
Version with gun is damn cool too....I want all.

Being main protagonost of A/Z I still found just this one
of Kaizuka Inaho while browsing shopping sites.
Understand it like: I have too much to browse to check some official sources.
But I so like this overal even in anime.

And for now the last one: Makoto Yuki
From Persona 3
(Aka Shin Megami Tensei 3)
I still didn't see movies, but I still play the game.
(since my save data got broken so from total start lol)
But I quite like him.


Also I was lately talking with Frankenstein
about the characters I like now...
Mikaela,
Inaho and Slaine
Makoto
...look at expression they have on faces!
°A°

I think it's quite one type of person...OoO
(maybe not Slaine, but close enough!)

BUT

 then there is Mr. Sparkling Hiiragi!!!
♡ ♡ ♡
(love love love) 

He's light of my life! ♡
Shinyaaaaaaaa~♡


eh...okay let's quit fangirling!

Whoa!
This post is already quite long and still I didn't posted about anime I saw recently!
OoO
What to do now???

Oh...let's call it a day!
(^^")
I'll go finish anime I'm in middle of watching now,
(I regret it but reasons are reasons!)
So I can write about it next time!

Also I downloaded Brave 10...
...originally I wanted to read it,
since I liked Kairi Shimotsuki's Madness,
but NOW I found out it's anime
(Thank you Hana and Baozi! lol)
So I can watch it.

I'm very slow with reading mangas! ;A;
And now I even got stucked with KakashixIruka doujin
...because of nostagy! ;A; ♡

(read as: when you stopped watching/reading Naruto long time ago and your friend just randomly tell you that they're basicaly canon. YES-I-CRIED-OF-HAPPINESS
My first OTP ever)
(That mean when I'll wait long enough the GureShin may come true! *A*)

See you some other day!


P.S. Got a new cell.
And it work! *A*
I cannot believe it since my late one
nearly never worked properly.
So maybe I can download there a blogger soon!

Friday morning

Long time no post, huh?

You wonder...wait, you got used lol.

Isn't it true?

Actually I planned to post on some photos...

...I arranged them all at my HDD...

...and then my HDD ask me for formating...

...and not gonna let me see my data...

...end of sad story...

Still I hope that visit at home

gonna give me my data back.

I want them.

*sigh*

Terrible is that not only I arranged

my photos...but that also I wanted

to do backup for my data after that.

But I spend weekend at Kaori

for karaoke and...

...then it happened.

*sigh*

And today I have many things to do,

even I woked up quite early

(I totally don't understand 

HOW and WHY and without alarm!!! OoO)

But my ankles quite hurt right now,

so I take while off,

watching blooming cherry tree 

out of my window...

(Hanami for lazy people lol)

and chat with Munamu at Japan.

Heh...I think about watch one

episode of anime and then get up maybe.

I hope I'll got my data back next weekend.

And since now it'll not be so busy at work,

maybe I'll be able to write something soon.

Have a nice Friday everyone!

Uneasy

Once again I'm home.




Actually that's not what I wanted to write about...

The thing is that I feel like losing myself.

It's not about change.
Just losing.

When I'm home with my family, 

with my two younger siblings,

I simply feel like a failure.

I cannot do anything right

and I just keep strugling.
Having them set quite high standarts.

There is not so many things I can be good at.

I know it.
My final exam at school was awesome...

...but that's all.
I'm not good in anything...actually I'm pretty bad I think.

Even my siblings don't really care,

yet I try to do.
But I can understand them.
We have nothing in common...

...except parents.

And the worst is when both of them are home together.

I sometimes feel like invisible.

I thought I found something I can do,

and which can kill some of my time in usefull way.

After one really good lolita meetup...

...

...everything stopped.

I can just go and make new meetup all alone...

...and on top I ended as the still-angry one again.

And also tried to be changed.

Problem is...that things I'm really

excited about to do,

I do with full of my heart.

So when I can organize something,

I'm happy but serious.

And I thought about help with

one girl's dream.

For making big event.

Really big one.

To do something I'll be good at,

and also which can make people happy.

I believe in myself with it.

I know what to do.

How to embrace that dream.

And I probably went too serious about it.

...just because I see it as serious thing.

I cannot help.

But they don't have time for it.

And since we're team of three...

...I cannot do it alone.

So all my excitement and whole the long time plan...

...just stopped.

And I just look into my notebook to kill my time.

I feel more sunken than I was before.

But they just wanna care about themselves.

When they need me, they call me.

But the worst thing is trying to change me.
Telling me that I should or shouldn't do this.

It makes me angry.

And even worst...

telling me that I'm nice and intelligent,

and that I can get over it.

Just give me break, please.

What do you know?

Sometimes I just cannot go over it.

I try to do everytime.

When my siblings nearly bully me.
When I try to do the best, to be carring,

to be good friend...to try to help others

and my lolita community...

And I just end up as a bad and angry one.

I was trying to help you with your dream,

and I ended up being lectured about me and my life.
When newbies are mean to you, just because

you showed you're human same as them.

Yeah, you all says it's fun.

But is it really?

How much you know about people,

before starting to repair their life even 

that you wasn't asked for help.

Since I do not need it.

Currently aside my family,

I need just two people...

...and my plush fox.

Don't ask for helping me...

...just give me break sometimes.

I forgot half things that I wanted to write.

I guess it's okay.

Since only who's gonna read it is me after some time.

Last month...or so...

Long time no see!
...AGAIN!!!

Yeah my fault again.

I know, I know.
But first I have no time,

and then I was lazy and at home.

I mean my real home,

not Prague.

But now I'm quite back.

What everything changed?

Well...Cosplay ball is successfully gone.

But I have to admit, it was real fun!

Since playing games with Darcia

and my brother...
(since we stayed at his place)

till ball itself
and also way in night city to flat.

Even way there was fun!
I somehow knew where to go,

but we decided to follow

one pair who I thought also went there.

Yeah, they did...

but soon, they followed us lol.

But since I'm really good navigator,

we successfully arrived,

skipped whole qeue,

(thanks to my ninja skills and Yuki at front)

and got free welcome drink!

(Some even two. God bless people who don't drink!!!)

Honestly...

I was trully surprised by whole ball.

From decoration to atmosphere including also music.

 And people was really nice.

And cute! 

♡

Here are some of my friends from lolita~

I found my new prey and also old one
(yet, she's still young...or immortal!)

And also old enemy...

...we fought...

...and I won!
And everyone lived happily ever after!
(IT-REALLY-HAPPENED!)

She's immortal, right?

Here is video!

And also last, but not least~
Let me introduce you,
my own lolita gang:

HOLY TRINITY!!!

 I made this name on our chat just randomly,
but I really like it so we started to use it.
Mainly for an organization of meet up.
For now just one, first in row.
It'll happen this Saturday.
Hope it'll be fun and we got blessings!
(lol)


 So currently we worked hard
(lol or not)
on this meetup.
It's chocolate themed and with
dress code.
But also with program and photoshooting.
I hope the weather will be good.
Since last two days snowed and today rain.
I beg you weather!
Please be nice!
 (^o^)"




Maybe you noticed that I still lacking in
365 Lifestyle Lolita Challenge...
Actually I'm lacking in many things in my life
(as excercising, German, eating...lol)
...but let's face the fact that'll probably not gonna continue.
YET!!! Unlike 30 day lolita challenge...
I TRIED HARD!!!
(lol)

Some other news:
(Except that I'm lazy but it's not new)
☆ I changed work

☆ Due to this I started to eat again
(It's 2 days for now lol)
☆ I want to live again
(well...mostly lol)
☆ I GOT THAT DAMNED VIP AT URBAN FAIRYTALE!!!
(To both day actually)

BTW if someone go there and will like to share hotel room,
please let me know!

☆ I plan another tattoo...
☆ ...and another earring.
☆ I started to use special hashtag
on Instagram and it's
#littleadventuresi
(i - goes for Iri lol)
☆ Finally I saw Le Petite Prince and cried a lot!!!

Also...
If you know some interesting story/fairytale
including strong prince character,
please let me know!
Or else I'll have to go for Frog prince...
...and I'm afraid I'll not get kiss. (;A;)


I think that's all today.
Hope to see you soon again!

Good night!!!

Oh...and nearly forgot!
I drew after ages again~

This one is for Darcia
Message included on Facebook:
"For always stick with me.
Even that I know it have to be damn terrible and exhausting.
And for always listening my whines and don't give up,
even that I'm such an emo sometimes or mean or grumpy.
I'm very thankful for having you. ♡

...and that you have guts to be my Willhelm! >:D"

Delay of 365LLC

Sorry for lacking my 

365LLC post.
I got many things to do today...

(and days before)

...

(for example spending money =__=")

No, really sorry.
I'll do it ASAP.

On other hand...

...I also made a new blog.

Czech one.

Because Czech wanna read in Czech.

lol

Say nothing better.

Someone plan to go to Urban Fairytale

to Berlin?

I do.

I hope to get VIP.

Or else I gonna be very unhappy.

I wanted two of them but they're like:

"No, we don't want your money."

(...you'll have nothing to eat. lol *joking*)

And now instead of writing post,

I was too busy by playing Unlight

and watching Mate Kamaras in

Die Schatten werden länger.

He's awesome!!!

And I found old 2005 version!!!

(*A*)

Well...as apologize, here is my photo

from Metamorphose Wien Tea Party,

you never seen here before lol

Enjoy and Good night!